I think I'm going to learn to play 'Santa Monica' by Theory of a Deadman.
It's a simple song, but I absolutely love it. It reminds me of so much.
The will to blog does not exist for me anymore.
But I promise that I will scrape up some sort of fiction soon. Somehow....
I think the problem with my writer's block stems from the fact that there are so many things I need to say, but so many things I can't say.
It's not a fear of being judged. It's a fear of pissing people off. I hate offending anyone, upsetting anyone, making anyone angry.... If I can't say what's on my mind, I tend to say nothing at all. I need to stop that. It ruins any sort of creative thought I may have.
Not to mention, everything I have ever wanted to say to the person who hurt me the most has already been said. The biggest motivator for writing in my life has already been perfectly explained. I can't come up with any better words than this. Every single word of this song is EXACTLY what I need to say to someone.
That was for you.
Yet sadly, no matter what happens, we can never be sure if the person who you want to hear your words will listen, or more importantly comprehend. People have a problem with substituting in their own reality. :(
ReplyDeleteProps on learning the new song though. :)
Love you! *smooooch*